Sunday, September 20, 2009

Day 19

Feeling sad tonight. Had a couple of prego ladies talking about their pregnancy.... and I was fine... but then they did a couple of things that indicated that they were sad for me. I sometimes don't want people to feel sad for me.. it makes it worse sometimes.

On the car ride home I just kept thinking if I don't O this month...or I don't get pregnant I will be sooo sad. I know that I shouldn't get my hopes up.. but I just can't help it. The end of October will mark one year that I stopped taking the pill. I don't know there is something about saying a year that is heart wrenching. I know that their are people that try for soooo much longer. I actually have a friend that has been for years. It makes me soo sad. lol.. and there I am feeling sad for someone when I don't want to be the one that people are sad for.

Please Lord... I don't want to wait any longer.
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4 comments:

  1. nikkiSeptember 21, 2009 at 5:51 AM

    im sorry your sad. sending hugs!

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  2. adsfSeptember 21, 2009 at 1:23 PM

    I'm so glad you liked my post! And it was great to read that book that talked about putting God before anything else - even the strongest desires of my heart. It has made me feel freer since reading it. :)
    I hope your Clomid cycle works!

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  3. onlybyhisgraceSeptember 21, 2009 at 7:09 PM

    hang in there!

    "Count it all joy when facing various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."

    I know you probably hear this all the time. Just a verse Ive been studying this week. Thought you could use it. Love you!

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  4. A little boo boo of our ownSeptember 21, 2009 at 11:22 PM

    Thanks friends. I am lookin forward to reading that book also.

    Thanks for the verse. I need all the encouragement I can right now. I know that this is a trial that is going to really help me in the end... It's just the waiting and longing that is really testing me. Keep the encouragement coming... :) love ya!

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